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A season 11 Episode 5 drabble

Title
: Heart of Darkness
Words: 100


Saving people, hunting things.

Dean wasn’t sure where or when that mantra had gotten lost, warped, distorted by static into not caring any more.

“We save people, Dean, remember?”

But he didn’t remember. When he tried, reaching back for the man he’d been, there was nothing there. The words slipped through his fingers like water, leaving a shining residue that was useless for quenching his thirst.

Sam’s face was all concern and worry, and Dean wanted to show Sam. He wanted to crack open his own chest, spread his ribs and expose the emptiness inside where the Darkness was hiding.
amberdreams: (Bum)
A further episode reaction drabble - especially for Thanksgiving. Thank you for being lovely Flisties.
So it's happy, right? Nah. Angsty as hell. Sorry!

Title: Happy Thanksgiving, Sam Winchester.
Words: 100


Sam’s thankful. No, he really is.

But -- and isn’t there always a but? -- that doesn’t mean he’s happy. He’s not blind. He can see what’s happening, and is helpless to prevent it, or even divert its relentless progress towards an ending that will not be a good one.

When Dean says he’s unsalvageable, Sam wants to rage and rant and deny it all, but he doesn’t. Because deep down, he knows it’s probably true. But he’ll carry on searching for an exit he doesn’t believe exists.

And it’s killing him slow and certain as a cancer of the soul.
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Yellow Ribbon
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E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Challenge word: strike
Warnings: none
Summary: Dean tries to find ways to cope now Sam’s at Stanford, and John is off who knows where doing who knows what.
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Dean works the job like always, except everything’s different now.

Sam isn’t the only one to strike out that September. Dad takes off too. Says he’s got something to attend to, that Dean’s old enough to work cases alone – Dean can’t argue.

Sam’s in California and Dean’s everywhere Sam isn’t.

He kills two black dogs and gets his leg chewed up bad, spends two weeks in a fever-dream while infection rages and nearly sweeps him away. Dad checks on him while he’s out of it; he never knows.

He survives, but the Impala’s as empty as the long road ahead.

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amberdreams: (dog!dean)

So obviously I'm way behind here in the UK, we've only just started on Season 3 on free-for-view - but flipping heck, what are they trying to do to me? All this angsty-breakup stuff is churning me up almost as bad as Supernatural! Poor Lewis...

amberdreams: (dog!dean)
Thought I'd stick up a few of my more recent drabbles (apologies to folks who read 'em over on stoopid FF.net). The second two are spoilery for season 9.

Dialect of Dean
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amberdreams: (dog!dean)
Another Sam drabble.  Don't know what's got into me.

A Game of Lies
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Warnings:  Spoilers for Season 9 if you know what I’m talking about.
Summary: For soul mates, the Winchester brothers seem to make a habit of lying to each other far too often. You’d think by now they’d know nothing good ever comes of it.

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Truth or dare?
How come they never ask for a lie? Because everyone knows that’s all there is between them – lies.
Sam stares at the ceiling, thinking about the lies in Dean’s eyes. What is being hidden now?
It won’t be small. These things are never insignificant, not between the Winchesters.  Their secrets are always weighed down with pain, heavy with guilt.
Blackouts.  Lost time.  Memories of death that don’t fit anywhere.
Sam’s fingers drift unconsciously to his neck, wonders why he expects them to come away bloody.


The voice in his head tells him to sleep, so he does.
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amberdreams: (dog!dean)
Another Sam drabble.  Don't know what's got into me.

A Game of Lies
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Warnings:  Spoilers for Season 9 if you know what I’m talking about.
Summary: For soul mates, the Winchester brothers seem to make a habit of lying to each other far too often. You’d think by now they’d know nothing good ever comes of it.

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Truth or dare?
How come they never ask for a lie? Because everyone knows that’s all there is between them – lies.
Sam stares at the ceiling, thinking about the lies in Dean’s eyes. What is being hidden now?
It won’t be small. These things are never insignificant, not between the Winchesters.  Their secrets are always weighed down with pain, heavy with guilt.
Blackouts.  Lost time.  Memories of death that don’t fit anywhere.
Sam’s fingers drift unconsciously to his neck, wonders why he expects them to come away bloody.


The voice in his head tells him to sleep, so he does.
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amberdreams: (Bum)
Unbeta'd fill for the square unrequited pining for hc_bingo

Title: Jack in the Box
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam/Dean
Prompt: unrequited pining
Medium: Fic
Wordcount: 534
Rating: R
Warnings: Angst, tenuous links to the prompt, mention of wincestous longings, no porn
Summary: Stanford era.  Dean is good at compartmentalising.
Author's note: Sort of a follow on from my ficlet Oh Bondage.

Read more... )
amberdreams: (coyote)
Unbeta'd fill for the square unrequited pining for hc_bingo

Title: Jack in the Box
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam/Dean
Prompt: unrequited pining
Medium: Fic
Wordcount: 534
Rating: R
Warnings: Angst, tenuous links to the prompt, mention of wincestous longings, no porn
Summary: Stanford era.  Dean is good at compartmentalising.
Author's note: Sort of a follow on from my ficlet Oh Bondage.

Read more... )
amberdreams: (coyote)
Unbeta'd fill for the square dungeons for hc_bingo

Title: Oh Bondage, Up Yours!
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam/Dean
Prompt: dungeons
Medium: Fic
Wordcount: c4k
Rating: N-17
Warnings: BDSM, caning, bondage, angsty porn, porny angst - probably more angst than porn
Summary: Sam might have got a full ride at Stanford, but that doesn’t mean he has enough money to pay his way without finding part time work.  He just wasn’t expecting to end up working in the local BDSM Club.
Author’s note: Title from Brit punk band X-Ray Specs.  My first venture into the world of BDSM, thanks to a friend of mine who worked for a while behind the bar in a club vaguely similar to Domnio’s.  Some of Sam’s experiences belong to her…thanks for letting me steal them, babe.  This one’s for you.


Read more... )
amberdreams: (coyote)
Unbeta'd fill for the square dungeons for hc_bingo

Title: Oh Bondage, Up Yours!
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam/Dean
Prompt: dungeons
Medium: Fic
Wordcount: c4k
Rating: N-17
Warnings: BDSM, caning, bondage, angsty porn, porny angst - probably more angst than porn
Summary: Sam might have got a full ride at Stanford, but that doesn’t mean he has enough money to pay his way without finding part time work.  He just wasn’t expecting to end up working in the local BDSM Club.
Author’s note: Title from Brit punk band X-Ray Specs.  My first venture into the world of BDSM, thanks to a friend of mine who worked for a while behind the bar in a club vaguely similar to Domnio’s.  Some of Sam’s experiences belong to her…thanks for letting me steal them, babe.  This one’s for you.


Read more... )
amberdreams: (coyote)
These both came from the same head space...and it's fairly angsty.

The Heart of Darkness
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E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Challenge word: dip
Warnings:  None
Summary: Dean and Sam’s experiences of Hell and loss are not so different.  In the end, there is only one thing that really matters.

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Dean looked into the heart of darkness, and darkness looked right back.  It dipped its talons deep into the heart of him and tore.
Rent apart, scattered, bleeding.  Lost.
Castiel saw deep into his soul.  How Dean believed he didn’t deserve to be saved.
Dean was wrong.

Sam fell into the heart of darkness thinking he could control it.  Using blood and rage and the power of his grieving.  He tried and failed.  He believed sacrifice would save him.
Sam was wrong.

All that mattered was the fire of brotherhood that welded them together.
It was all that ever mattered.

0x0x0x0


Left Behind
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E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Challenge word: dip
Warnings:  None
Summary: A little dip into Sam’s head after Dean’s Hell deal and his disappearance into Purgatory.

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Here’s the thing about Dean. 

He is never the one who leaves.

So when Dean dies every Tuesday, when he sells his soul, when the Hellhounds come for him, Sam can’t believe it’s real.  He’s never been the one watching while Dean walks away.

That first time makes Sam crazy.  Then it makes him mad.  Dark rage consumes him, burns him up.

The second time Dean leaves him, in that laboratory when Roman’s gleaming smile explodes on them, Sam has no reserves left to dip into and he falls apart.

He can’t be the one who’s left behind.  Not again.

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amberdreams: (coyote)
These both came from the same head space...and it's fairly angsty.

The Heart of Darkness
***********
E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Challenge word: dip
Warnings:  None
Summary: Dean and Sam’s experiences of Hell and loss are not so different.  In the end, there is only one thing that really matters.

***********
Dean looked into the heart of darkness, and darkness looked right back.  It dipped its talons deep into the heart of him and tore.
Rent apart, scattered, bleeding.  Lost.
Castiel saw deep into his soul.  How Dean believed he didn’t deserve to be saved.
Dean was wrong.

Sam fell into the heart of darkness thinking he could control it.  Using blood and rage and the power of his grieving.  He tried and failed.  He believed sacrifice would save him.
Sam was wrong.

All that mattered was the fire of brotherhood that welded them together.
It was all that ever mattered.

0x0x0x0


Left Behind
***********
E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Challenge word: dip
Warnings:  None
Summary: A little dip into Sam’s head after Dean’s Hell deal and his disappearance into Purgatory.

***********
Here’s the thing about Dean. 

He is never the one who leaves.

So when Dean dies every Tuesday, when he sells his soul, when the Hellhounds come for him, Sam can’t believe it’s real.  He’s never been the one watching while Dean walks away.

That first time makes Sam crazy.  Then it makes him mad.  Dark rage consumes him, burns him up.

The second time Dean leaves him, in that laboratory when Roman’s gleaming smile explodes on them, Sam has no reserves left to dip into and he falls apart.

He can’t be the one who’s left behind.  Not again.

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A Salute to the Fallen

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E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100

Challenge word: Ridiculous

Warnings: Spoilers for Season 5 finale – again.

 

Dean faces his first Memorial Day without Sam.

 

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It was achingly hard to be back in Lawrence, even if this cemetery wasn’t Stull.

 

Dean slowly approached the sarcophagus-shaped memorial to the fallen of the 1863 massacre.  He’d thought it’d be easier here, where the dead were so long gone they were largely forgotten.  Now he wasn’t sure it was such a good idea to be here at all.

 

Feeling faintly ridiculous, he was about to lay the single red rose he’d been clutching on the monument, when a simpler, smaller marker caught his eye with one heart-piercing-word.

 

Samuel.

 

Vision suddenly blurred, he dropped the flower there and fled.

 

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A/N.  Oak Hill Cemetery, Lawrence has only four individual grave markers remaining from the 1863 Quantrill’s Raid massacre victims, one of which is dedicated to a Samuel Jones…  I doubt it is actually right next to the main monument but hey, that’s what you call poetic licence!

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A Salute to the Fallen

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E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100

Challenge word: Ridiculous

Warnings: Spoilers for Season 5 finale – again.

 

Dean faces his first Memorial Day without Sam.

 

***********

 

It was achingly hard to be back in Lawrence, even if this cemetery wasn’t Stull.

 

Dean slowly approached the sarcophagus-shaped memorial to the fallen of the 1863 massacre.  He’d thought it’d be easier here, where the dead were so long gone they were largely forgotten.  Now he wasn’t sure it was such a good idea to be here at all.

 

Feeling faintly ridiculous, he was about to lay the single red rose he’d been clutching on the monument, when a simpler, smaller marker caught his eye with one heart-piercing-word.

 

Samuel.

 

Vision suddenly blurred, he dropped the flower there and fled.

 

***********

 

A/N.  Oak Hill Cemetery, Lawrence has only four individual grave markers remaining from the 1863 Quantrill’s Raid massacre victims, one of which is dedicated to a Samuel Jones…  I doubt it is actually right next to the main monument but hey, that’s what you call poetic licence!

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A Salute to the Fallen

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E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100

Challenge word: Ridiculous

Warnings: Spoilers for Season 5 finale – again.

 

Dean faces his first Memorial Day without Sam.

 

***********

 

It was achingly hard to be back in Lawrence, even if this cemetery wasn’t Stull.

 

Dean slowly approached the sarcophagus-shaped memorial to the fallen of the 1863 massacre.  He’d thought it’d be easier here, where the dead were so long gone they were largely forgotten.  Now he wasn’t sure it was such a good idea to be here at all.

 

Feeling faintly ridiculous, he was about to lay the single red rose he’d been clutching on the monument, when a simpler, smaller marker caught his eye with one heart-piercing-word.

 

Samuel.

 

Vision suddenly blurred, he dropped the flower there and fled.

 

***********

 

A/N.  Oak Hill Cemetery, Lawrence has only four individual grave markers remaining from the 1863 Quantrill’s Raid massacre victims, one of which is dedicated to a Samuel Jones…  I doubt it is actually right next to the main monument but hey, that’s what you call poetic licence!

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Had 3 hours sleep thanks to live streaming... all I can say is:

The Hollow Land of Broken Men

 

So this was the way that Dean Winchester’s world finally ended.  With a knock on the door of the beautiful woman he loved, a delighted hug from the kid he still thought of, somewhere deep down inside, as his own.  In any other circumstances, this should have felt like a warrior’s homecoming after the obligatory ticker-tape parade, but this loss was too deep, too raw.  Too uniquely his.

He was alone in a way that Lisa could see and could understand, but was helpless to fix.

 

The four horsemen’s rings had ripped out the better part of him.

 

 

Sometime later

 

Outside, not touching the edge of warm yellow light that pooled around the small house, Sam watched as his brother sat down to eat at Lisa’s table.  Ben was talking animatedly, Dean smiled indulgently.  A touching scene of domesticity that spoke to Sam of a vow fulfilled.

 

He took a tentative step forward. Dean’s presence was a magnet, drawing him with a promise of comfort, love, understanding.  He hesitated for a moment, then nodded, decision made in an instant.  Dean deserved his chance at a normal life.  He’d earned it.

 

Heart aching, Sam slipped silently away into the shadowy night.



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a double drabble in 2x100 words precisely thanks to the scene break,  I am now off to Birmingham to meet with resurrected Bobby, caged Lucifer and a whole load of dead people.......Asylum 4 here I come - pity God won't be there though.

 



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Had 3 hours sleep thanks to live streaming... all I can say is:

The Hollow Land of Broken Men

 

So this was the way that Dean Winchester’s world finally ended.  With a knock on the door of the beautiful woman he loved, a delighted hug from the kid he still thought of, somewhere deep down inside, as his own.  In any other circumstances, this should have felt like a warrior’s homecoming after the obligatory ticker-tape parade, but this loss was too deep, too raw.  Too uniquely his.

He was alone in a way that Lisa could see and could understand, but was helpless to fix.

 

The four horsemen’s rings had ripped out the better part of him.

 

 

Sometime later

 

Outside, not touching the edge of warm yellow light that pooled around the small house, Sam watched as his brother sat down to eat at Lisa’s table.  Ben was talking animatedly, Dean smiled indulgently.  A touching scene of domesticity that spoke to Sam of a vow fulfilled.

 

He took a tentative step forward. Dean’s presence was a magnet, drawing him with a promise of comfort, love, understanding.  He hesitated for a moment, then nodded, decision made in an instant.  Dean deserved his chance at a normal life.  He’d earned it.

 

Heart aching, Sam slipped silently away into the shadowy night.



**************************************************************

a double drabble in 2x100 words precisely thanks to the scene break,  I am now off to Birmingham to meet with resurrected Bobby, caged Lucifer and a whole load of dead people.......Asylum 4 here I come - pity God won't be there though.

 



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Had 3 hours sleep thanks to live streaming... all I can say is:

The Hollow Land of Broken Men

 

So this was the way that Dean Winchester’s world finally ended.  With a knock on the door of the beautiful woman he loved, a delighted hug from the kid he still thought of, somewhere deep down inside, as his own.  In any other circumstances, this should have felt like a warrior’s homecoming after the obligatory ticker-tape parade, but this loss was too deep, too raw.  Too uniquely his.

He was alone in a way that Lisa could see and could understand, but was helpless to fix.

 

The four horsemen’s rings had ripped out the better part of him.

 

 

Sometime later

 

Outside, not touching the edge of warm yellow light that pooled around the small house, Sam watched as his brother sat down to eat at Lisa’s table.  Ben was talking animatedly, Dean smiled indulgently.  A touching scene of domesticity that spoke to Sam of a vow fulfilled.

 

He took a tentative step forward. Dean’s presence was a magnet, drawing him with a promise of comfort, love, understanding.  He hesitated for a moment, then nodded, decision made in an instant.  Dean deserved his chance at a normal life.  He’d earned it.

 

Heart aching, Sam slipped silently away into the shadowy night.



**************************************************************

a double drabble in 2x100 words precisely thanks to the scene break,  I am now off to Birmingham to meet with resurrected Bobby, caged Lucifer and a whole load of dead people.......Asylum 4 here I come - pity God won't be there though.

 



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Feeling angsty but creative so came up with a combination of the two.  The quote is a poem by John Clare called I Am.

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