A pair of drabbles

[amberdreams]

These both came from the same head space...and it's fairly angsty.

The Heart of Darkness
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E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Challenge word: dip
Warnings:  None
Summary: Dean and Sam’s experiences of Hell and loss are not so different.  In the end, there is only one thing that really matters.

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Dean looked into the heart of darkness, and darkness looked right back.  It dipped its talons deep into the heart of him and tore.
Rent apart, scattered, bleeding.  Lost.
Castiel saw deep into his soul.  How Dean believed he didn’t deserve to be saved.
Dean was wrong.

Sam fell into the heart of darkness thinking he could control it.  Using blood and rage and the power of his grieving.  He tried and failed.  He believed sacrifice would save him.
Sam was wrong.

All that mattered was the fire of brotherhood that welded them together.
It was all that ever mattered.

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Left Behind
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E/O Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Challenge word: dip
Warnings:  None
Summary: A little dip into Sam’s head after Dean’s Hell deal and his disappearance into Purgatory.

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Here’s the thing about Dean. 

He is never the one who leaves.

So when Dean dies every Tuesday, when he sells his soul, when the Hellhounds come for him, Sam can’t believe it’s real.  He’s never been the one watching while Dean walks away.

That first time makes Sam crazy.  Then it makes him mad.  Dark rage consumes him, burns him up.

The second time Dean leaves him, in that laboratory when Roman’s gleaming smile explodes on them, Sam has no reserves left to dip into and he falls apart.

He can’t be the one who’s left behind.  Not again.

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