Blood will Flow

In between being completely blown away by the outpouring of kindness over on the ♥ LOVE MEME ♥ - this Fandom, my flisties, so much love and gratitude for you all, seriously - I've written a nice little miserable drabble to bring everyone's spirits back down to earth again. Ha ha ha!

Have a hundred words of Demon!Dean.

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Being Human Demon.


What am I?

He wants to weep, but of course he doesn’t. Partly because he’s Dean fucking Winchester (or was?), partly because he’s afraid if he tries, he might find that he can’t.

Who am I?

He blinks but mirror shows him a blackness that doesn’t go away. He wants to care but he can’t. Perhaps caring isn’t in him any more, burned away by the Blade. He doesn’t want to test that theory because the one emotion he's certain of is fear.

Where am I?

A question he can answer, though it isn’t one he likes.

Not with Sam.

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I've been overwhelmed by all the good wishes, physical and virtual gifts today, not to mention the fact that when checking my virtual gifts I realised I've got a stack from Christmas, New Year and last fricking year I never realised were there!! Now y'all must have thought I was such a rude bugger, not saying ta very much for those before now. Doh!

So here's my sheepishly apologetic thank you for everything, you are the bestest Flisties in the world, without a doubt.

So far on my birthday, the sun has shone. I've been to the park for egg and chips with an old friend and the hubster, and we sat outside soaking up the sun. Mabel the tawny owl was resplendent in her tree for us when we wandered up in her direction for an ice cream, and my friend made me lemon drizzle cake.
Carrie and her ice cream, and me with mine, in the park. It ain't Italian but it's still ice cream. So.

Paul got me this lovely silver ring, Aesop's Fables illustrated by Arthur Rackham, an embroidered top, ash48's Fan Phenomena Supernatural book and we are going down to London on 12th to see Once, which I'm really looking forward to as I'm told it's even better than the film.

I got one of those wee Dean Pop figures, plus a SPN spinoff novel which I think I already read, but hey, who's counting. My brother in law bought it for me, along with the DVD box set of Grimm season 2, one of Brian Froud's squashed fairies books which I think Dean would heartily approve of, and a build your own Weeping Angel. Which I may pass on as they are too scary. BIL also gave me one of Castle's Nicki Heat novels, which cracked me up, I had no idea they'd done that for real! He also got me another FIVE note books, after buying me a set of ten for Christmas. Plus a bunch of pencils. I know I'm suppose to be a writer but that is serious pressure!! LOL

To all my anonymous Valentines - thank you so much for all the gory, ominous and perfectly Supernatural Valentines! You can check mine out, and have a shuftie at all the rest over here at the meme put together by the lovely monicawoe and quickreaver. Thanks to you too, darlings, for the wonderful idea and for organising it so beautifully.

And I just discovered a lovely message on this Valentine's Day Game "amber1960 - Your art has given me so much happiness this year. / Wonderful artist and a great friend. / You introduced me to the wonderful haven of Livejournal and I'm forever grateful for that. It always gives me joy to see you around :)"
Whoever this was (Sorry I'm fricken clueless! LOL) - Thank you for your lovely words!

I just wanted to say a massive thank you to everybody who sent me virtual gifts, jolly messages and even actual real cards and stuff too!  You are all lovely jubbly peeps and made my day very special.  Hopefully I will get round to thank you all individually but thought I'd throw out this fluffy blanket of love just in case I forget or accidentally miss someone out.

Thank you to nwspaprtaxis and monicawoe for the coy-looking pandas! Virtual hugs all round, girls!

Update to the Panda Posse thank yous - adrenaleneshots, de_nugis and badbastion thankee kindly!