S11E09 reaction drabbles - Don't Stop Believing

[amberdreams]

Don’t Stop Believing
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Episode Reaction Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Episode:  S11E09
Warnings: Spoilers for the episode.
Summary: Between them, the Darkness and the Devil might just break the Winchesters into pieces.


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Dean should have known better.


Deep inside him fear was building like water behind a dam. What if the reason Amara didn’t steal his soul was because she already owned it? What if he’d already lost?


It’s not that he really believed an ordinary steel blade would work against an elemental force older than the universe. It’s just that he had to do something, try anything to assert control, pretend he retained some ability to think and act independently, that he was still fighting on the right side.


He did know better, but it didn’t stop him wanting to believe.


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Sam should have known better.


Why had he thought that God, silent for so long, would suddenly decide to speak directly to him? It’s not that he’d thought he was something special, not at all, but he might have hoped, just a tiny bit. The calm that came with the delusion was such a comfort, he hated to let it go.


But now he had to face the truth.  It was Lucifer in the cracks, leaking through the hairline fractures in his Cage and through the gaping fissures in Sam’s mind.


Now he knew better, and he finally stopped believing.

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Comments

[kazluvsbooks.livejournal.com]

Argh, so damn sad and angsty!! So that sounds about right!
I hope the bro's can prove each other wrong <3

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Me too! i don't want Sam to fall into a pit of despair, it's bad enough being in Hell and a cage...

[borgmama1of5.livejournal.com]

So impressive how you can sum up the experience for each of them in 100 words!

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Aw thank you...

[laughablelament]

*clutches heart* Gorgeous study in contrast. I adore these little character studies and this one is top notch. <3

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Thanks very much!

[milly-gal.livejournal.com]

Wonderful parallel drabbles honey! Hits you *right* there!

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

I haz the FEELS for my boys... Thanks dear.

How are YOU feeling now? Better I hope...

[milly-gal.livejournal.com]

Me, well I sound like a fifty a day four hundred pound blues/jazz singer, but I'm less likely to lose my head via it just exploding off my shoulders ;) I still feel like thrice hammered shite, but WAY better than the other day. I *never* want those kinds of symptoms again!

[madebyme-x.livejournal.com]

You nailed these! Each one packs a punch, and perfectly captures the mind sets of both Sam and Dean. So sad and angsty, and it makes me worry for them both going into the rest of the season. Sam in a cage with Lucifer knowing that he's been tricked, Dean feeling powerless against the force of Amara and their bond.

It's January soon, right? Thanks for sharing :)

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Thanks... but January feels so far away!!!

[zara-zee.livejournal.com]

Nice contrasting perspectives. Can't wait to see how their storylines develop.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Thanks - and me too! Is it January yet?