Season 10 Episode 12 reaction drabble - Being Dean

[amberdreams]

Took a second watch to get my hook...

Title: Being Dean
Words: 100
Summary: Dean had a chance to be re-made. He blew it.

Fourteen again. Raging hormones, a body too slight for a man’s fighting style, a voice that slipped up a register with embarrassing frequency – all weighed against a chance to start over, to be clean again.

To be someone who isn’t defined by negative space. Who doesn’t consist of the four elements:

I can’t do this any more
I don’t deserve love
I’m too tired
I’m not worth it

He entertains the notion for an hour, maybe more, before the kid he was fails, just like he’s always done.

So what’s the point of clinging to hope?

He squeezes the hex-bag.

Comments

[sw0rdy.livejournal.com]

Not with that face (in his adult body, at any rate)!

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

well that's true, I can think of lots of other things I'd like to do with him that's for sure!

[sw0rdy.livejournal.com]

Ha, that train of thought is never going to end well (or clean, for that matter)!