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Title: Being Dean
Words: 100
Summary: Dean had a chance to be re-made. He blew it.
Fourteen again. Raging hormones, a body too slight for a man’s fighting style, a voice that slipped up a register with embarrassing frequency – all weighed against a chance to start over, to be clean again.
To be someone who isn’t defined by negative space. Who doesn’t consist of the four elements:
I can’t do this any more
I don’t deserve love
I’m too tired
I’m not worth it
He entertains the notion for an hour, maybe more, before the kid he was fails, just like he’s always done.
So what’s the point of clinging to hope?
He squeezes the hex-bag.