SPN Finale – one last time insta reaction

[amberdreams]

Spoilers - obviously

::What’s occurring?::

I thought I’d have time to download and watch this morning before the electrician arrived, but I hadn’t factored in the Crying Time, or that the rumours I’d heard about one of the boys dying might pan out, or that watching one of them die for the umpteenth time would break me like this has.

Even thinking how clunky the signalling of the damn spike was, how trite, didn’t stop me being horrified and moved. The fact that Jared’s tears were definitely in there with Sam’s didn’t matter. It was all compounded by Sam telling Dean he could let go – because that’s what I told my dad when he was dying. So I’m taking a break to get myself together because the electrician is due any minute and I need to stop thinking about it for a bit.

I’ll have to stay offline too because I don’t want to be spoiled for the last 20 minutes of the episode. Twenty more minutes? Really? ARGH. Perhaps if the other rumour I saw is also true that will help me because that one (Sam hooking up with Eileen) will really make me angry.

::Interlude::

Okay…I risked watching the rest while the bloke’s doing his work upstairs and I’m holding it together – largely because it’s kind of okay that Dean went to a new reformed heaven and Bobby was there, and Sam arrived after a lifetime and a moment, and the reunion hug would have teared me up more but I’m being strong because I can’t be a weeping mess right now. Plus I’m a bit disturbed by the fact I can hear the electrician sneezing his head off in our bedroom and I’m wondering how I can disinfect the whole room when he’s finished. Fecking covid.

I liked bits of this, I’m happy unhappy, glad it’s over, sad it’s over.

I need to digest it all now, see what everyone else thought.

Comments

[kazluvsbooks.livejournal.com]

I thought it was perfect, and the performances were brilliant ❤️

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't say perfect (Sam's weird wig and bad aging makeup! The fact that our boys would not be stupid enough to go into a vamp nest at night time....) but overall - it was fitting and emotional and I'm so relieved.

[jj1564.livejournal.com]

Well done on managing to watch it with Sneezy in the house! \I hope he just has allergies and nothing worse! Over all, I loved it; my only quibble was Dean dying - I wish we'd known how long it had been after Jack left them and that it wasn't a nail that finished him off! But I've drabbled this out of my system! It was so MUCH better than the GoT and Lost endings! 'one last time insta reaction' - noooooooooo!

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

For the sake of our Season 16 writers room, I'm postulating that it could have been several years after Jack (AJ!) before Dean's untimely demise. That way we can fit in at least one, maybe more seasons in between.

[jj1564.livejournal.com]

Good point - and for the sake of my own Dean!girl heart I'm going to believe it was at least a year between 19 and 20!

[harrigan.livejournal.com]

I *loved* this ending. It was nearly perfect and my only quibble(s?) so very tiny. I'm sorry you didn't get to watch it under better/less distracting circumstances.

I didn't think the show could still make me cry like that. I'm very happy to be discover it can.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Me too! I honestly wasn't expecting that. And I'm definitely more and more in love with this ending the more I think about it.

[twigletmoo.livejournal.com]

I liked it overall. It left me with a warm nostalgic feeling, and the sense that everything is in the right place, things are as they should be.
But from the social media bubbles of super fanatical fans I seem to read all seem to hate it and that is making me more sad than the show ending has.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

I have some reservations (not least about Sam's terrible grey wig! LOL), but the more I think about it, the more I love what they gave us. It was a homage to our boys, it was a fitting ending.

As for the wankers on Twitter, bloody hell. I get that some people were disappointed, but given that the level of their disappointment is largely because they've spent the last 10 years queerbaiting themselves with some of the most ridiculous and contrived meta, I can't feel that sorry for them. And to then take out their ire on the cast and crew at a time when we should all be celebrating the work those people have put into the show over the years, well it's churlish at best, meanspirited and selfish at worst.

[harrigan.livejournal.com]

I avoid fannish social media beyond the occasional LJ, so I was both unspoiled (yay!) and oblivious to the brouhaha (yay to infinity!) I agree 100% with everything you say. (And that wig was probably my primary "quibble" with the ep, LOL!)

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Oh lordy, that wig. Whatever possessed them to think that was a good idea. Given for that scene they didn't even bother aging Jared's face, why didn't they just use a bit of that spray round his temples to grey his hair a bit? Or maybe it was on purpose, to relieve the tension for us - if so, it worked, because I actually laughed out loud when he appeared wearing it.

[bflyw.livejournal.com]

I'm happy with the ending. I was dreading it, but this is an ending I can definitely live with. I am not okay with the show ending though. I have actually been at my neighbours today, crying my eyes out over the show ending - and she's not even a fan, so she cannot relate. But I am so not ready for SPN to be over.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Me neither... it seems worse, somehow, that we don't have a convention this year to share the grief.

[herminekurotowa.livejournal.com]

I was watching yesterday night with Em, who was laughing her head off about her old mom crying her eyes out. Stoopid teenage callousness.

Then my husband called from work like he does every night, but he was late and found exactly THAT moment to call.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Oh nooooooo! You'll have to find some alone time and watch again to have a proper wallow in the angst.

[zara-zee.livejournal.com]

I balled my eyes out from the Barn Scene, throughout the rest of the episode and for an hour afterwards. Still periodically tearing up today. It was good. Like you, I had some quibbles--the aging up being so badly done on Sam, for one. His death scene make up was okay, but the younger aging up was just bleugh. The other thing that isn't sitting quite right for me is the wife. One blurry image, no screen time together, no photos of her in the house, and yet he's still wearing the wedding ring on his deathbed? 🤔 I did like Anniespinkhouse's take on that (as I recc'd on Discord) so I think something similar to that will be my headcanon. But those things aside, I was happy (in a sobbing my heart out kind of way) with the finale. The J's performances were outstanding. If there was any justice in the world, they would get an Emmy for Dean's death scene.

Very brave of you to watch with a tradie in the house! I watched it alone after I got home from my PM shift so that I didn't have to share my emotions with anyone!!! Hope you have now had time to process a bit more now. 💔

And I'm utterly disgusted by the behaviour of some sections of so-called 'fandom'. Pack of bullies, the lot of 'em.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Some sections of fandom are just awful but I suppose they just reflect the mood of the world right now, so full of awful people thinking they can say what they like uncaring of the impact.
I'll have to check anniespinkhouse's post. Sam's life without Dean wasn't done well, but at the time I didn't really care - apart from the terrible wig!

[zara-zee.livejournal.com]

We need to have a ritual salting and burning of that wig!!!

Anniespinkhouse wrote a drabble, which for me just settled some of my...disquiet...about Blur!Woman and Sam's relationship with her.