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Rachel

Seven years old and friends.

We played ‘tennis’ in the middle of Rundle Road with bats made of hardboard and squared offcuts of wood that gave us blisters.
We swapped buttons and played Chinese Chequers and fought over the best dressing up dresses. We drew pictures and played Newmarket and accused each other of cheating. We fell out of friends and back again.
We were a team at school, a solid duo against the world. We played at being pickpockets and stole sweets and rubber monsters from the newsagents.
We were the Dotty Detectives with our special code.
We got lost in Sefton Park and broke my Dad’s chisel trying to build a tree-house in the rhododendrons in Sudley in their gardens. We climbed and hid in the hollow tree.
We took your little sisters to the park with your puppy and abandoned them all when a red setter chased us.
We did the messages for your Mum – 20 Embassy, bread and milk. Sometimes we had to walk miles (it felt like) to find that shop on the corner near the park that was open long hours.
I came round yours to watch Beverley Hill Billies and drink Corporation gin.

Twelve and still friends.
At different schools, we had to learn to function without our ‘twin’ during the day, but the evenings were still full of each other.
We played at kissing with your brother Mark and my cousin Clive.
We were separated, our friendship forbidden – you whistled at my window and we talked in secret. You were a bad influence on me and I reciprocated.
We spent hours sitting on my bed, talking and listening to music.
You’d call round and we’d go to the bag wash for your Mum.
You came with us to France, camping. We sat in the tent, terrified, while two storms met overhead, one from the Bay of Biscay, the other from the Pyrenees. My Dad sat on his metal camping chair next to the tent pole laughing at us.
You scared yourself with devilish stories; I scared you with a plaster ‘severed’ finger.
Sometimes we fell out of friends, we’d argue and you were too good at holding onto your anger. I’d miss you terribly.

Twenties and beyond.
I went away; you went away.
We allowed ourselves to grow apart.
We were bad at communicating, I’d write, you didn’t reply; we’d forget Christmas and birthdays.

But then, as now and always, you were here (are here) in my heart.


1960-2017 A life too short, my friend.


 

Date: 2017-09-15 01:16 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] kalliel
So, so much love to you, Rachel's family and all her loved ones, and to Rachel herself. I wish I could come over and hug you for real. <3333333333333

Date: 2017-09-16 08:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com
Too much sympathy would undo me, I'd cry Sam-like snotty tears on your shoulder for hours, and you'd wish you hadn't come. LOL

Date: 2017-09-15 01:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blythechild.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry, love :(

Date: 2017-09-15 01:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sigrundora.livejournal.com
My condolences darling ❤

Date: 2017-09-15 01:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] madebyme-x.livejournal.com
What a beautiful tribute to Rachel. I'm so sorry to hear this sad news; you're all in thoughts ♥

Date: 2017-09-15 02:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jj1564.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry, my dear. Although you knew it was coming, it doesn't make losing your old friend any easier. This is a beautiful tribute to her and your memories.

*love & hugs*
Edited Date: 2017-09-15 02:13 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-09-15 02:52 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] big-heart-june.livejournal.com
I am so soo very sorry, BB *hugs* i choked up reading this beautiful tribute. thinking of you, honey ♥♥

Date: 2017-09-15 02:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jennytork.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry.

Date: 2017-09-15 04:34 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-09-15 05:00 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] ramblin_rosie
Very sorry for your loss. :'(

Date: 2017-09-15 05:17 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] fufaraw
I'm so sorry for your loss. Comfort and sympathy to you and her beloveds.

Date: 2017-09-15 05:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dizzojay.livejournal.com
She was taken far too soon. Those were beautiful words for a beautiful friendship.
All my fondest thoughts and sincerest condolences to you and Rachel's family xx

Date: 2017-09-15 05:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] deceptivemirror.livejournal.com
I grieve with you.

Date: 2017-09-15 06:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jennygeee.livejournal.com
My thoughts are with you <3

Date: 2017-09-15 08:06 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] beelikej.livejournal.com
My condolences, Amb. *hugs*

Date: 2017-09-15 08:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hugemind.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry for your loss, bb. *hugs*

Date: 2017-09-15 08:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] brutti-ma-buoni.livejournal.com
There's nothing like a childhood friend. Nobody else quite understands where you've been and who you were Beautifully written. I'm just sorry you've lost her so soon.

Date: 2017-09-15 09:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sw0rdy.livejournal.com
Oh hon. I know you knew it was coming, but I am so, so sorry for your loss. *hugs*

Date: 2017-09-15 10:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] somer.livejournal.com
I am so, so sorry :( *hugs you hard*

Date: 2017-09-15 11:17 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] fairyniamh
*hugs* I am so sorry.

Date: 2017-09-15 11:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zara-zee.livejournal.com
Lovely tribute. I'm so sorry.

Date: 2017-09-16 12:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] borgmama1of5.livejournal.com
My deepest sympathies.

Date: 2017-09-16 05:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] galwithglasses.livejournal.com
Lovely writing and I'm so sorry it went this way. Hugs to you and your family and Rachel's too. We're here for you when you need us.

Date: 2017-09-16 10:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] de-nugis.livejournal.com
I am so sorry.

This is a beautiful tribute to your friendship with Rachel. I am thinking of you.

Date: 2017-09-16 02:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] julchen11.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry, so very sorry, my dear. I wish I could come over *hugs you more than Close*

Date: 2017-09-16 06:02 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] tsuki-no-bara.livejournal.com
i'm so, so sorry. *hugs* for you and rachel's family.
Edited Date: 2017-09-16 06:03 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-09-16 08:55 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sillie
I'm so sorry for your loss bb. *hugs*

Date: 2017-09-17 12:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tripperfunster.livejournal.com
Aw shit.

I'm so sorry hon. There really are no words that do this sort of hurt and sorrow justice.

Date: 2017-09-18 08:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] milly-gal.livejournal.com
I am so so sorry honey, all my love to you and Rachel's family x♥x

Date: 2017-09-19 08:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jimbobjoe.livejournal.com
Lovely tribute! I am so sorry for your loss.

Date: 2017-09-22 08:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bflyw.livejournal.com
<3 *hugs*

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