Stuff and business

[amberdreams]

Just a drive-by to apologise for being largely absent - Gishing is swallowing up my week, and I doubt I'll ever catch up with all your posts. Especially as I also need to finish my second BB art work, and read two long awaited Big Bangs PDQ!

But I wanted to come on to have a whinge. Then a moan/squee.

How come even online, I can still feel like the boring kid in the corner that never gets included in the cool kids' discussions? How come those horrible feelings from schooldays can linger when over forty years have gone by? I guess I'm just not cut out to be interesting enough that people want to email me to chat about stuff. You'd think at some point we'd grow out of this crap, wouldn't you. *sigh*

However, I refuse to let these stupid feelings of inadequacy get me down.

Gishweek is going rather well! Though I've failed to persuade my dentist surgery that they need a string quartet in the surgeries to calm their patients down. Which is sad, especially as I know other teams will manage that one. It's bugging me because I know two dentists, one in the US and one in Australia, and I have one friend in a string quartet and another whose kids are in the local Youth Orchestra, so it felt as though I should have been able to finagle it somehow.

Now I'm off to create an album cover featuring an animal rock star. Byeeee!

Comments

[kalliel]

Ugh, I'm sorry you're feeling that way, bb. :((( I definitely know that place. The thing I always think about is the title of Felicia Day's book, You're Never Weird on the Internet. I've never read it, so I don't actually know what it's about, but I ALWAYS think, YES. YES YOU CAN. YOU CAN DEFINITELY BE WEIRD EVEN ON THE GODDAMN INTERNET. XP And it sucks! Because it makes me feel like, man, if I can strike out even in the midst of a bunch of people who are more like me than the average street block by about 9000%, then I really am doomed! XP Because I totally also get those feelings of like, man, how come--even on the Internet!!!!--everyone seems to be better friends with each other than they are with me? :( Or like, man, I wish people did X or Y thing, or felt moved to email me/message me/etc. the way they do with their other friends! Bleh.

For what it's worth, I consider you one of the cool kids. And I know that when you're in this kind of meh headspace that isn't necessarily helpful to know--I'd rather 100 people said it right here right now, not just me! (and undoubtedly others in this post before me!)--but do know that it's quite true.

Good luck on gishing, and getting other zany things to come to fruition, even if dental symphonies aren't in the cards! And on your BB arts, too. Go get 'em, gurl!!!! <33333 I LOVE YOU.

[sillie]

Because I totally also get those feelings of like, man, how come--even on the Internet!!!!--everyone seems to be better friends with each other than they are with me? :( Or like, man, I wish people did X or Y thing, or felt moved to email me/message me/etc. the way they do with their other friends! Bleh.

Ugh, I've been feeling this so much lately. :/

[kalliel]

We need to band together!!!! Make our own parade of people who often feel like sad rejects in the fandom cafeteria. (Fun fact, at my high school my group of friends didn't even sit in the cafeteria!! I don't think any of the cool kids did, either, but the cool kids definitely did NOT sit in the hallway in between the Advanced Placement History and Webdesign classrooms, studying for calculus, taking European History notes, and playing turn-based RPG boardgames they invented themselves while also talking about vampires and Japanese reapers... .... .... .... ...)

But in all seriousness, though. YOU ARE A GEM and I love you. <333333 I love your positivity and your fabulously richly colored art and the pics you post of your amazing hairstyles and your love of DEAN and--!!!! <3____<3

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

You love my hair? That's - mystifying! LOL!!!! ♥ you back
I'm an idjit, you love Silvia's hair! Which I agree, is awesome. But my hearts still apply,

[sillie]

We should!

Aww, thank you bb! Same for you, I love your posts. <3<3<3

[tifaching.livejournal.com]

Heh. I think that's ALL of us. You have no idea how thrilled I was when we became friends. I was all KALLIEL wants to be friends and she's so smart and popular and writes so fabulously and she wants to be friends with ME! I was so excited. So there. You didn't strike out with me much like you don't strike out with so many of us. There are those we aren't going to connect with and that's okay. LOL. IT IS. If I convinced me, I hope I convinced you.

[kalliel]

Awwww. :'D <3333 I love you! And that feeling was so mutual, believe you me!