Season 9 The Purge insta-reaction

[amberdreams]

This really is an instant, gut reaction - oh boy. That was depressing.
I did chuckle a bit at some of it in the early parts, but overall, I'm sitting here now, my stomach is hurting and it's not from laughing. The way Sam and Dean are at the moment makes me feel queasy.
That's all.

Comments

[freya922.livejournal.com]

I'm there with you, sister.

This is so painful, but it also feels very real to me, like stuff people in this much agony would say. I think Sam is not saying "I'd let you die because I don't care" but "I'd let you die in these world saving circumstances if you wanted that because I love you that much."

I want Dean to remind him that he DID do that...bet you he does later. Also bet Sam gets put in the circumstance himself by the end and it ain't so easy.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

I'm feeling better now, LOL. I need to have a rewatch... I think Sam had to say this and Dean needed to hear it, but I'm also certain Dean's immediate reaction is that Sam is saying, I don't love you as much as you love me (or worse, I don't love you). On the back of certain scenes in Dean's history - like the YED inside his Dad saying "they don't need you, not like you need them", or Sam under the Siren's influence saying "you hold me back", and so on and so on...it's far easier for someone with Dean's self esteem issues to see this as a kick in the teeth from the person he loves and needs the most.

And we've already seen he's hitting the bottle again, even before this, just from Sam's we hunt but not as brothers (and the guilt over Kevin's death of course).