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amberdreams ([personal profile] amberdreams) wrote2014-11-27 02:25 pm

Happy Thanksgiving Flisties - have a miserable drabble

A further episode reaction drabble - especially for Thanksgiving. Thank you for being lovely Flisties.
So it's happy, right? Nah. Angsty as hell. Sorry!

Title: Happy Thanksgiving, Sam Winchester.
Words: 100


Sam’s thankful. No, he really is.

But -- and isn’t there always a but? -- that doesn’t mean he’s happy. He’s not blind. He can see what’s happening, and is helpless to prevent it, or even divert its relentless progress towards an ending that will not be a good one.

When Dean says he’s unsalvageable, Sam wants to rage and rant and deny it all, but he doesn’t. Because deep down, he knows it’s probably true. But he’ll carry on searching for an exit he doesn’t believe exists.

And it’s killing him slow and certain as a cancer of the soul.
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[personal profile] kalliel 2014-11-27 02:38 pm (UTC)(link)
AUGH, SAAAAAMMMMMM. <3333 ;( DEAAAAAN.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 02:41 pm (UTC)(link)
*CLINGS TO YOU* *WAILS*

[identity profile] freya922.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 02:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Jeez! Definitely NOT happy. Poor Sam...sob.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 02:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Sorreeeee. But SHOW!

[identity profile] madebyme-x.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 02:55 pm (UTC)(link)
This was dark, and sad, and just ouchie all over. But I loved it.

What is this show doing to me?

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Doing to us all, hey... Dammit.

[identity profile] tifaching.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 04:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for making me cry on Thanksgiving.

Because deep down he knows it's probably true. *cries for them both*

Gorgeous but heartbreaking.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
It had to be done. What's a holiday without a few tears? LOL
Thanks anyway x!

[identity profile] ephermeralk.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 04:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Yay! Angst-y turkey day feels!! Thanks, bb!

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
No, thank YOU!

[identity profile] milly-gal.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 07:08 pm (UTC)(link)
*WHIMPERS*

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*
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[personal profile] frozen_delight 2014-11-27 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy thanksgiving!
This is great and so sad.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for reading and hanging out with me! :D

10x07 "Girls Girls Girls" Recs and Fic:

[identity profile] livejournal.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
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[identity profile] chomaisky.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
In my head canon Dean'd gone too far long before he was taken over by the mark or became a demon. I think when he allowed Gadreel riding Sam's body, and still thought he'd do it over again, he hurt Sam bad, and that's very personal. That horror is no less than watching MoC!Dean slaughtering Abaddon or demon!Dean killing innocent people. And that horror doesn't leave as well. I kinda wonder if Sam, quite aware of the darkness in Dean, can be around Dean like before. So, yeah. Lots of things are killing Sam now.
Happy thanksgiving!

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-28 08:04 am (UTC)(link)
Oh I think you are right, I think Dean knows it too - hence the line about wanting to do the right thing because he's sick of doing the wrong one...

[identity profile] jj1564.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
"Sam wants to rage and rant and deny it all, but he doesn’t. Because deep down, he knows it’s probably true." This is so sad and painful, poor Sam, poor Dean, poor fans!

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2014-11-27 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes yes, poor us!!

[identity profile] emmatheslayer.livejournal.com 2014-11-28 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
poor Sammy nice job

[identity profile] emmatheslayer.livejournal.com 2014-11-28 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
your welcome lots