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amberdreams ([personal profile] amberdreams) wrote2018-07-07 08:40 am

Happy Birthday quickreaver!

So many birthdays, so little time and I know I've been really bad at gifting lately, but I couldn't miss my spn_reversebang co-mod's birthday now, could I?

A very small ficlet offering for you, dear quickreaver. Hope it hits a spot.


A Bang or a Whimper?

The world ends on a Wednesday. It does it quietly, and Dean’s the only one who notices. He shrugs, throws his battered duffel into the back seat of the Impala and drives.

That’s how it goes, that’s how Dean goes, every time.

It’s not that he doesn’t care. He cares a lot. About the people he meets and those he doesn’t; he cares that they are going to suffer and die, he hates that there’s nothing he can do about it. But - and here’s the thing that defines Dean Winchester, whatever the universe he’s in – those people, however deserving; the good, bad and the ugly? Those people aren’t Sam. None of them are his brother, and when it comes down to the nitty gritty of his life, that’s all that Dean can focus on.

So when the apocalypse comes Dean leaves, every time, because he hasn’t found Sam yet, and he can’t stop until he does.

~0~0~0~

Sam follows a trail of stars. He eats sparingly, only drinks enough water to maintain functionality; doesn’t waste precious time on anything but the basics that allow him to keep moving. Anything else is insignificant because it isn’t Dean.

Dean’s out there, somewhere, and Sam’s going to find him, worlds be damned.

And they are.

Eternally damned.

~0~0~0~



AN: Coincidentally, this also fills a [community profile] genprompt_bingo prompt to end the world in the first paragraph.

[identity profile] madebyme-x.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 12:04 pm (UTC)(link)

What a wonderful birthday treat for our quickreaver!!! I loved how even though they're separated they're all each other can think about. Full of hurty goodness!

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 10:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Thankee!

[identity profile] borgmama1of5.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 02:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Yikes! I need this resolved!!!

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
That resolution might happen - one day - if I can get my brain to co operate!

[identity profile] zara-zee.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 03:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Lovely! And happy birthday, Quickreaver...

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)

[identity profile] anniespinkhouse.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 05:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh goodness. What a wonderful dose of angst.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Thankee kindly!

[identity profile] blythechild.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 06:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Wait... what? I log into LJ for the first time in ages and... you gut me with a few choice paragraphs???

Ugh. They are traveling, searching for each other. UGH.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Sorry...not sorry... no, yeah. And thank you!

[identity profile] caranfindel.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 07:57 pm (UTC)(link)
How lovely! And happy, happy birthday to Quckreaver!

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)

[identity profile] tyrsibs.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow! I really would like to see more of this. Happy Birthday, quickreaver!

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-07 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Really? Cool! I'll have to give it some thought. Thanks!
ext_12410: (spn - dean looks away (by oxoniensis))

[identity profile] tsuki-no-bara.livejournal.com 2018-07-08 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
that's both really cool and really painful. two thumbs up. :D

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-09 12:27 am (UTC)(link)
Yay, thanks to you and your perky thumbs!

[identity profile] milly-gal.livejournal.com 2018-07-10 01:29 pm (UTC)(link)
HOLY MOLY that was painful, and harsh, and so true to both of them. I can literally see Dean just jumping in the car and searching, eternally searching, and ignoring the Apocalypse in favour if finding Sammy.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-21 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! Yes, both of them would move heaven and earth to find each other (handwaves Season 8...)

[identity profile] milly-gal.livejournal.com 2018-07-23 10:00 am (UTC)(link)
I think we all have to handwave season 8!

[identity profile] marciaelena.livejournal.com 2018-07-20 05:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, how lovely! It totally hits the spot for me. I hope they'll find each other soon.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-21 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
Yay! Glad to hear this resonated with you and yes, we can't have them apart for too long...

[identity profile] juliasets.livejournal.com 2018-07-23 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
That's it, that's the show! Nothing else matters and I love it. This was amazing, I would read 100k words of this story, but you still managed to capture so much in just a fraction that.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2018-07-23 09:30 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! That's exactly how I feel too - it's all about the boys.