Stuff and business

[amberdreams]

Just a drive-by to apologise for being largely absent - Gishing is swallowing up my week, and I doubt I'll ever catch up with all your posts. Especially as I also need to finish my second BB art work, and read two long awaited Big Bangs PDQ!

But I wanted to come on to have a whinge. Then a moan/squee.

How come even online, I can still feel like the boring kid in the corner that never gets included in the cool kids' discussions? How come those horrible feelings from schooldays can linger when over forty years have gone by? I guess I'm just not cut out to be interesting enough that people want to email me to chat about stuff. You'd think at some point we'd grow out of this crap, wouldn't you. *sigh*

However, I refuse to let these stupid feelings of inadequacy get me down.

Gishweek is going rather well! Though I've failed to persuade my dentist surgery that they need a string quartet in the surgeries to calm their patients down. Which is sad, especially as I know other teams will manage that one. It's bugging me because I know two dentists, one in the US and one in Australia, and I have one friend in a string quartet and another whose kids are in the local Youth Orchestra, so it felt as though I should have been able to finagle it somehow.

Now I'm off to create an album cover featuring an animal rock star. Byeeee!

Comments

[siennavie.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't have guessed you felt that way because you're part of the cool kids from my perspective. You're the heart of things, involved with a lot of people and communities. But I know that doesn't change how you feel, and it does suck those feelings never go away. I've felt like a wallflower myself, what with most of my flist quietly migrating to twitter (when did that happen?!), but that's also largely my fault. I just can't keep up online. My interest in and devotion for show is just not as deep, consuming, and long-running as others...

Anyways, I look forward to seeing your big bang art. I plan to catch up with BB posts and comments once I finish my final set as well *hugs* Thank you for all that you've given me in fandom - your time, your support, your stories (from RL to fandom exploits), the laughter and joy - that makes a bigger impact than just being "cool."

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Ah you are so lovely ♥... Thank YOU! I know this is stupid, and the ones I'm seeing as the cool kids probably don't feel they are anyway, which makes it even sillier. But yeah - what is it with people migrating to Twitter. You can't even have a proper conversation there - and it's so ephemeral too. It's much too easy to miss things and it doesn't allow for mulling over and thinking time. *sigh*

Still. BBs, baby! Looking forward to seeing your second one too!! ♥