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amberdreams ([personal profile] amberdreams) wrote2015-10-23 09:36 am

Season 11 episode 3 reaction drabble - Sam

Sorry about the drabble spam! LOL

Yesterday's effort could have been either of them when I started writing it, but I do tend to gravitate towards Dean, so that was where it ended up. But this morning I was thinking about the difference between the two boys, in their numbness and disconnection, and so I had to write a Sam one too.


Distant
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S11 Drabble Challenge: word count 100
Episode 3: The Bad Seed
Warnings: Spoilerish for the episode.
Summary: Sam is lost.

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Time was everything was crystal clear, full of certainty. He’d made tough decisions, cut through unbreakable ties with surgical precision, woven new ones that should’ve lasted forever.

But that new fabric went up in flames with Jess, and he and Dean had stitched themselves back together, stronger than before.

So why does he feel Dean’s so far away, so blurred at his edges, so hard to distinguish from the background wallpaper of saving people, hunting things?

Sam longs for Dean’s warm arm slung round his shoulder, Dean’s hand outstretched to pull him up.

He wants his brother (his life) back.


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[identity profile] manzanita-crow.livejournal.com 2015-10-23 09:39 am (UTC)(link)
It's a good job they're not real, cos everything they've been through makes me want to cry.

[identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com 2015-10-23 09:42 am (UTC)(link)
IKR? Both of them are making me sad right now.

[identity profile] manzanita-crow.livejournal.com 2015-10-23 09:51 am (UTC)(link)
Well, they're not really, cos I'm not buying what Carver is selling. But thinking about what it would be like for them if they were real...
I mean, I know Sam and Dean aren't real, but it makes me think about people in living in war zones and other awful situations. And that is what makes me want to cry.

[identity profile] madebyme-x.livejournal.com 2015-10-23 10:46 am (UTC)(link)
You really delved into Sam's head space here, capturing that sense of disconnect so well.

Wonderful drabble!!

[identity profile] jj1564.livejournal.com 2015-10-23 11:42 am (UTC)(link)
I love how you've look at both sides here, and I get this feeling from Sam too, that Dean is there with him physically but not emotionally - yet.

[identity profile] milly-gal.livejournal.com 2015-10-23 12:13 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a really good job they aren't physically real people, or I'd be curled in a ball on the floor openly weeping for them after these last two drabbles!

[identity profile] harrigan.livejournal.com 2015-10-23 02:14 pm (UTC)(link)
That was poetry! (i.e. brava!)