Stuff and business

[amberdreams]

Just a drive-by to apologise for being largely absent - Gishing is swallowing up my week, and I doubt I'll ever catch up with all your posts. Especially as I also need to finish my second BB art work, and read two long awaited Big Bangs PDQ!

But I wanted to come on to have a whinge. Then a moan/squee.

How come even online, I can still feel like the boring kid in the corner that never gets included in the cool kids' discussions? How come those horrible feelings from schooldays can linger when over forty years have gone by? I guess I'm just not cut out to be interesting enough that people want to email me to chat about stuff. You'd think at some point we'd grow out of this crap, wouldn't you. *sigh*

However, I refuse to let these stupid feelings of inadequacy get me down.

Gishweek is going rather well! Though I've failed to persuade my dentist surgery that they need a string quartet in the surgeries to calm their patients down. Which is sad, especially as I know other teams will manage that one. It's bugging me because I know two dentists, one in the US and one in Australia, and I have one friend in a string quartet and another whose kids are in the local Youth Orchestra, so it felt as though I should have been able to finagle it somehow.

Now I'm off to create an album cover featuring an animal rock star. Byeeee!

Comments

[de-nugis.livejournal.com]

It's easy to feel that you're talking into a void sometimes online, even though at other times the community here is a lifeline. And I think it's always difficult negotiating the very shared interest based kind of interactions one has in fandom -- it can be hard to disentangle feelings about the interest from feelings about other people, and it can be painful having one's interests diverge from other people's, or other people's from one own.

But you are most surely not boring!

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I don't mind being boring but ha, other times I want to be SOMEBODY. I'm nothing if not contrary. But I am still happy on LJ, so I guess this is it. Tumblr and Twitter just don't have the conversational capacity for me.

Still love you though!

[de-nugis.livejournal.com]

Twitter is a mystery to me. I can see it as a platform for fun, but a lot of academic online culture has taken up residence there and I'm just like how? Everyone is tweeting conferences now? I will just sit here sadly with my flip phone and not have a Twitter account, because the Middle Ages have clearly left me behind.

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Ah but you are Tumblring, aren't you? So you are a step ahead of me on the iTrail.