*Hugs* You had nothing to be embarrassed about, that kind of thing always hits you when you least expect it. And I'm with you I can't understand why funerals take so long to happen. As you say you've said you're goodbyes, and you're starting to come to terms a little with the loss. And then there's the funeral, and it just rips the wound open again.

I wish I could offer something in the way of comfort, but I understand exactly what you're saying. All I can say is we will all be thinking of you, and I just wish I could do more than offer a virtual hug. But if you ever need to bend someone's ear, I'm here to listen.