I wouldn't have guessed you felt that way because you're part of the cool kids from my perspective. You're the heart of things, involved with a lot of people and communities. But I know that doesn't change how you feel, and it does suck those feelings never go away. I've felt like a wallflower myself, what with most of my flist quietly migrating to twitter (when did that happen?!), but that's also largely my fault. I just can't keep up online. My interest in and devotion for show is just not as deep, consuming, and long-running as others...

Anyways, I look forward to seeing your big bang art. I plan to catch up with BB posts and comments once I finish my final set as well *hugs* Thank you for all that you've given me in fandom - your time, your support, your stories (from RL to fandom exploits), the laughter and joy - that makes a bigger impact than just being "cool."